In the video "I LOVE YOU" The Transformation Paradox, A painful retrospective, regressing into my material ten years back in time. To be remindedof all that went through my mind during a seemingly hopeless time. To "dare" to be ugly and awkward again, yes, because the truth is that I want pass and avoid people's scrutiny and judgmental glare. I just want to fit in and live my life. There is something paradoxical about this journey that I find contradictory.

I have done it for me, so that my outside fits my inside, but at the same time I did it all just to be loved and accepted by everyone else.